My (future) job

Since I'm doing a postgraduate degree, I already have a job. At the moment, I'm seeing patients, teaching a class and also working as an "errand person" for an elder woman, as well as selling some of my crochet creations. I have a lot on my plate, and honestly, I'm far from loving it. The amount of responsibility is almost unbearable, I don't know how I've managed to stay alive.

This year's experience has helped me realize that I REALLY don't want to live like this for the rest of my life. I dislike oh so much the feeling of responsibility and urgency, and to always be running or late to everything. The stress is really not worth it. 

I'm starting to fantasize about living a life outside of the grid, and what's most unsetteling of this is that I'm in the perfect moment in my life to choose one way or the other, ending each one in a very different outcome than the other. So... No pressure or anything.

Knowing this, I wouldn't like to speak about a dream job, because there isn't one for me. I'd like to have an occupation at most, that I do because I like doing it, but not because my life and my expenses depend on it. In the ideal world, I'd like to live off the land and be a dancer, or a crocheter, or a petter of pets (as in playing with them, and like, enjoying life the most? lol). I know I'm not the first one to think/feel this, I hope some of you have had some similar experience so I'm not alone, lol.